Coming Home Bikini Prep Series: Post 13 “It’s About Visualizing the Light at the End of the Tunnel”

Today is the last day of my 5th week of prep. I can’t believe it’s been 5 weeks already. Tomorrow starts the last day of my volume block and then I’m going into a strength block for three weeks, there may be an increase in cardio during these three weeks since I won’t necessarily be burning as many calories during my lifts. But we shall see. I haven’t made changes to cardio in two weeks and these macros seem to have put me in a deficit, but I’d also like to continue with progress and not have an opportunity to stall.

So. This week. This week was a HUGE week personally. JP decided to give his notice to his employer and by next Saturday he will be here in time for an early dinner. This is something that we’ve been talking about for months and it’s weird to think it’s finally happening.

Last week, as him and I were talking about the possibility of him leaving his job and relying solely on my salary we talked about me continuing to compete this season. It’s an expensive hobby and not something you should take lightly.You may wake up one day and say I WANT TO COMPETE! But it’s not a decision that you throw yourself into without considering it from many angles. We went back and forth and ultimately said let’s see how week 5 of prep goes and then make a decision. So let’s talk about this week to recap.

Sunday’s leg day kicked my butt. I felt strong throughout and then dead when I got home. Perfectly acceptable. It’s high volume and these stems need to be pushed! I felt like both back days were strong as well. Cardio went well this week with the incorporation of the stair stepper since it’s been fixed at my gym. Lifting on Friday night was a good idea even though it’s busy. I gave myself the extra half hour to sleep in and I know so many of you think it’s funny because that’s not sleeping in for so many people. But when you get up at 430 almost every day for the gym, 5 am is sleeping in.

Macros were pretty solid all week event with three days of half meetings. I did find myself eating a 1 carb waffle EVERY DAY just to hit protein and stay full. Drinking my protein doesn’t keep me full. There’s something about the mental process of actually chewing that makes my mind think I’m eating. Your body also absorbs things differently when they’re liquid versus solid.

Monday night was pretty tough because I found myself really bored even though I was busy with classwork. JP and I also had discussed his resignation. Boredom and stress. More this week than in the past few weeks, I’ve found myself falling asleep fast and almost as soon as I laid down, which means there may have been night where I was asleep before 9, in the middle texting…

Checking in this morning I was 126.2 pounds, a full pounds loss from last week. There were no changes in my measurements, but really not everything is going to tighten up at once. I will take the pound and do a happy dance. I can see the glute/hamstring tie in pretty clearly and it’s exciting to see changes like that in my body. That is more important than the tape or scale.

I would say week 5 went pretty well and that was the determining factor if we stretch and I continue to compete. So I will be competing. I have 8 weeks until the show, but that’s going to be my last competition for a while. I had plans anyway to reverse and bulk from November until March/April with the hope to cut and compete in a few shows at the end of the summer beginning of the fall – Connecticut, New Jersey and Boston shows. But while I love competing because of all the structure and deadlines it gives me. I know it’s an environment in which I thrive even when I doubt myself. I think back to 2014 and why I started.

I wanted to learn something new. I was single and had been “doing the online dating thing” for over a year – we’re talking about 100 in person dates that were TERRIBLE. I decided to delete my online dating profiles, say fuck it and focus 100% on me. Bodybuilding and competing gave me something that I never had before. It was a new outlet in which I could push myself, question my abilities, goal set and push my abilities. I had never challenged myself physically so much, not even through my running.Mentally this is liberating because when you start you don’t think about the greatness that’s lies ahead, but when you look back all you can do is think WOW, I DID THIS.

This was something I could do to take up my time after graduate school, after I said fuck it to dating. I went to work, went to the gym, planned, ate and slept. I had no problems with that. I met JP when I was six weeks out from the 2014 New England Championship. I never could’ve imagined that what we have now was what was waiting for us. September 9th is our two years anniversary, and the whole time we’ve been dating all we’ve known is how to be together while we live apart. Competing has been a savior to take up my time, but this past week I thought about everything that I’ve always wanted to do with someone else, everything I’ve wanted to do with JP and I thought about how when he moves home I don’t mind if my goals shift slightly and if we try living our lives together.

Am I saying that you can’t have relationships and compete? FUCK NO. Of course you can, but JP has always known me to be someone to say “yes, but first the gym.” I wonder what it’ll be like to say, the gym can wait today. Prep is very structured and I love that, but teaching him to lift resulted in a two hour training session that usually takes my 45 minutes to an hour. I can’t wait for us to the gym for a lift and say, “what do you want to train today?”

Here’s my September schedule:

  • September 5: date day with Liz
  • September 7: lunch date with Jackie and Beth
  • September 9: full day in Boston for work
  • September 10: JP arrives home
  • September 11: Party with JP’s family
  • September 12 to 14: vacation i.e. lift, eating and laundry
  • September 15: leave for DC in the evening
  • September 16 to 17: DC travel for work returning on the 17th
  • September 20 to 21: Cape Cod travel for work
  • September 23: half day in Boston for work

I think September is going to fly by and now you know why!

Here are some of the goals I want to accomplish in the post-season (November to March):

  • Bring my back squat from 1×3 of 165 to 3×5, 1×3 of 185 by March
  • Work on front squats and start adding weight
  • Run a 5K before the calendar year ends
  • Find the best German Chocolate Cupcake
  • Try the rest of the flavors of doughnuts that Kane’s has to offer before retrying any flavors
  • Go on vacation with JP

I have 8 weeks until the New England Championship. It was my first show. It’s going to be my last for a little while.

I’m excited and stressed, but I’m not tired. These next 8 weeks are going to be strong. It’s going to be unbelievable.

<3 Cristina


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