About

Hey there! I’m Cristina and a late 20-something. This blog was to help me document my journey through weight loss, but when I reached my goal it became about my health, love of fitness and food too. I started tracking my weightloss at around 240ish and a size 24. I’ve competed as a bikini competitor. I’m a lover of lifting and running, but also eating and drinking some good beer.

Here’s some of my story.

I started my weight loss journey in January 2012,  but I hadn’t always been overweight. In fact, I had gained over 115 pounds in college between my sophomore and senior years. I went to college around 130 pounds and a size 5. It’s crazy to look back at those photo and think that I was fat. I wasn’t fit by any means, but it wasn’t comparable to what being an obese person was like at all.

So, my weight loss journey, my health journey – it started in January 2012. I started where pretty much everyone starts – as a resolutioner. I had gone through some HUGE life changes in November and December 2011 and I needed something I could control. My physical health was what I became attached to so I could regain control of my life. I started with my nutrition, but only loosely.

I counted calories because I knew I was consuming too many. I started moderating to eating just over 2,000 calories – I know that sounds like a lot and it is, but at the same time I was easily consuming 3,000+ and if I binged I could push that into 4,000+ . During college, there were days I easily consumed 4,000 calories because of my food choices.

At this point, I had eliminated coffee because I didn’t know what a good cup should taste like and I loaded it with cream and sugar – so better to just not have it at all. I eliminated soda, even diet soda. I cut out foods that I knew weren’t good for me like chips, pasta and candy. This not only helped me establish a better eating plan, but saved my wallet too. I immediately started seeing a change because this was a big change for me.

After about a month, I started to move around more. I did Zumba because it sounded like a fun way to move around. I had grown up dancing and this reminded me of that. It wasn’t easy and I’m sure I looked crazy doing it, but it got easier. Every now and then I would venture towards the dumb bells, but at this point I didn’t know what I was doing and just focused on eating better and moving around.

In March 2012, I packed up and moved Massachusetts for a new job to start at the beginning of April 2012. While I had been working full-time hours before, I hadn’t had a job in my field and this new job was my first in industry “big girl” job. There’s stress with moving and starting new job, but I didn’t know anyone so working out was easy because it gave me something to do with my time.

While I had been looking for jobs in my industry, I had also applied to an accelerated graduate program at Northeastern University. I happened to be accepted into the program around the time I accepted my job offer. It wasn’t intentional, I thought something good would have to happen – they just happened at the same time.

I found Zumba at my new gym and a co-worker who didn’t mind going. We also found Pilates together, which made me feel embarrassed and honestly, I didn’t enjoy it. I like challenges, but I couldn’t figure out why anyone would do this for fun.

By the fall, I was working full-time hours and I was taking classes full-time through Northeastern’s College of Professional Studies, which caters to the working adult. I could get my degree online and work without being concerned I would have to leave work early or find a way to fit it in. However, with some of the craziness that is graduate school, I put my weightloss on a slight hold. I didn’t gain, but I didn’t really lose. I was still mindful of my eating, but I had decreased my activity levels significantly. Honestly, this was still progress. The biggest changes happened when I graduated the following fall.

In 2013, I literally found my stride. I started running and had signed up for a 5K. My first miles were slow. I mean snail speed and it wasn’t until I had been running for about a year that my mile was comfortably under 10 minutes. #practicemakesbetter

In 2013, I was also diagnosed with PTSD. It was and wasn’t shocking. I grew up in a physically and mentally abusive household, but no therapist I had ever seen had considered that a possibility. We had been putting bandaids on problems for years, but not always getting to the root. This was the first time we looked at cause and effect and built solutions.

After I finished my master’s, I got back on the train of increasing my activity and figuring out what I wanted for my health. That’s how I found the Paleo diet. If you’ve never heard of it, you can find out more about it here. It was trendy and I didn’t know any better, so I thought I would give it a try. Here’s what I learned from Paleo:

  1. I missed peanut butter
  2. Vegetables aren’t that bad
  3. Almond flour and coconut flour are more expensive than I believe they should be
  4. I couldn’t live like this

I ate Paleo for almost two months and I did lose, but it wasn’t because I ate Paleo, it was because I was in a caloric deficit and that’s how you lose fat. I further learned that while you can have bacon and some other foods that many would consider not so good, there wasn’t really a structure to moderate them, so I still didn’t have balance.

In January 2014, I had my tonsils removed and I was out of the gym for a minimum of three weeks to recover. I had complications and was out of the gym for almost six. It was terrible, not just because I couldn’t work out, but eating and drinking was a pain in the ass.

I spent the spring continuing to make a few Paleo recipes, but going back to what I knew, calories and moderating my foods. I went back for another attempt with yoga. I tried Bikram – you know, really hot yoga. I went consistently because this time around I enjoyed it. However, there were times the instructor was kind of an asshole and when my passes were used, I didn’t renew. When the weather got nicer, I added some hiking in here and there because it’s New England and do you even live here if you don’t do that?

In June 2014, I decided I needed something to push me. Something that would make me work out of my comfort zone and help me obtain more progress in my weightloss journey. Weight lifting did just that. Competing in a bikini competition did just that. Going back through old posts I guess I did my measurements.

Here are the stats dated June 14, 2014

  • Weight: 174 pounds
  • Bust: 35″
  • Waist: 31.5″
  • Hips: 41.5″

I was a size 10. I changed my eating to six times a day to make sure I was getting meals spread throughout. I started working out six days a week. I threw myself into lifting and learned everything I could. My initial macros were hilarious and way off. It was way too much protein and way too many carbohydrates – I know, I can’t believe I just said too many carbs, but they were poorly calculated.

That’s when I found IIFYM.com. They had calculators so I could trash the initial macro calculations and reconfigure them appropriately. In the first month of tracking my macros and weightlifting I had lost 12.5 pounds. This was huge for me because it was breaking the misconceptions I had about women and weightlifting.

In 10 weeks, I was down 17.5 pounds and it was mostly from my middle. I was no longer a size 10, I was a size 6. My running was improving more and things felt better in the gym and out of the gym.

I was gaining confidence in the gym. I had forced myself to be ok with just walking in and picking up the barbells, but now I wasn’t forcing myself.

I met my boyfriend and while I don’t know what reaction I expected, I told him what my goals were for competing. His response was “ok”.

On the day of my show I was 150 pounds. I had lost 24 pounds in the course of 21 weeks.

After my first show in fall 2014, I went back to tracking my food, but not necessarily being specific about it like I had when getting ready to compete. I gained some weight back, I was high 150s, but not quite 160. After the holiday, I wanted to try to compete again, I started prepping after Christmas and like all things – timing is everything and it just wasn’t my time.

In the spring of 2015 I tried the Bikini Body Guide – it’s a plyometric based workout program. It has a cult following. It definitely pushes you and I lost some weight with it, but then I started looking for a new job and just like everyone else, I wasn’t focusing on my weight. I was focusing on getting a new job and that meant a lot of interviews and travel and in some cases half-day interviews. The weight I had lost, I put back on. Then I did get a new job and I felt like I could get my crap together, but with a new job I didn’t want to focus on programming myself.  I decided to get a trainer, I was skeptical of trusting someone else, but I felt I didn’t have a choice to that. I did some research and I picked an online trainer that I felt I could work with who would listen to me. We worked together in the fall of 2015 and my goal was to lose the weight I had put on, I wanted to start January at 150 pounds with the hope I was prep for another show. I reached that goal and we continued to work together through my prep. I came in at a perfect 130 pounds for stage. This time, I wasn’t in control of my programming or my food.

During that second season, I started to realize that parts of my body that I believed were covered in fat, were actually covered in excess skin. So a month before my show I decided to set up a consultation for skin removal. That had never been a part of the plan before, but maybe it would be now. A few weeks before my show, I had my consult and we picked a date for surgery. I had surgery a month post-show.

I stayed with my trainer post-show and post-surgical recovery, but I realized that summer that I wasn’t being challenged and I didn’t feel like I was being heard and in some cases I felt like my nutrition wasn’t where it should be in relation to my workouts. I wanted to be maintaining and yes, I didn’t want to regain the fat that I had worked hard to lose, but something that I didn’t realize and that was never communicated to me, is that maintaining has nothing to do with the scale. Looking back on my programming and my nutrition at the tail end of working with my trainer, I was still in a caloric deficit, but I would sometimes go over my nutritional goals, which had me flirting with maintaining sometimes and a deficit sometimes.

When I tried communicating my issues and I felt I wasn’t heard, I left my trainer. I decided to do it on my own again.

Now if I was working out, I was doing it on my own terms. I was doing it because I enjoy it. I was competing for sport. I was losing for sport. Now, I wasn’t losing weight or fat for health and that is a huge change from the general population wanting to be healthy.

I attempted another prep in the Fall of 2016, but mentally I wasn’t having it. There were a lot of things going on and I took medical leave from work. I’ve had a lot of praise for taking leave and putting my mental health first, I’ve also gotten a lot of crap for it because many don’t see mental health as a reason to take a break from work, but it is and our mental health impacts our physical health. This I learned greatly that fall. It’s what lead me to leave my full-time job and coach my own clients.

In January 2017 I felt capable of competing again (photos below) and I prepped myself for the stage a third, forth and fifth time. I placed 4th in both classes at my first show that season and I struggled to enjoy it. Looking back it’s a great accomplishment and while the season wasn’t perfect, it opened my eyes. I had some of my heaviest lifts during that season. I challenged my heart and my head.

Many people have associated me with competing, but I started this journey to become a healthier size, which is something that competing doesn’t equate to. I wholeheartedly believe working out and eating well are important actions in a health lifestyle, but I also believe we need to understand our emotional brain in relation to our behavior. It’s not a punishment to choose healthier options. I also think that if you feel guilt when having a treat, you need to step back and think about why. Working out isn’t a punishment either and if you feel that you’re dragging yourself to the gym or for a run, you should re-evaluate your goals and think about what is the priority in that moment.

I went back to school in January 2017 to pursue an associate’s in public health. You can see I had my own experiences with health and fitness, and I have strategy and development skills from my previous career, but I didn’t have a formal background in biological sciences. I had been asked to help others on their journey’s, but never felt capable. An associate’s paired with my master’s in nonprofit management will open a lot of new opportunities for me and allows me to marry my personal goals with my professional ones.

I graduated with highest honors in May and while I hadn’t anticipated doing anything but coaching – I found a passion for public health and after working in global health for a few months I decided to build my own door and start working to create a nonprofit. I enjoy splitting my time between coaching individuals one-on-one and building my community – they’re both good perspectives and it keeps me balanced.

As for my personal health, I’m still figuring it out. The journey doesn’t end just because a goal is accomplished, so I’m continuously working on being a better me – physically and mentally.

This journey was about my weight, then it was about fat, then it was about my brain and sometimes it’s about it all. But mostly it’s about finding a good place in this world so I can help others feel capable and accomplish their goals too.


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6 thoughts on “About

  1. CultFit says:

    How do I begin to – Thank You – for stopping over and following my humble blog-o-thing?!? I wish you the very best, not only today but well into the future. Be inspired and please take care.

  2. hayleesnanny says:

    I have followed your journey for quite some time now. And have seen you grow and learn and mature into a very special person, and as someone who can always see the better part of life even when at times it seems against you.
    I am so proud of you and how hard you have worked to accomplish and continue to control your life in so many great ways.
    I wish so much for the future for you and JP. Hugs from Arkansas

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